We all struggle with certain things, being abuse survivors. I’m 43 years old and have never been able to keep my life together. I didn’t finish college, I can’t hold a job, and I have no good decision making skills, it seems.
I’m an amazing, empathetic (to the extreme), kind, thoughtful, spunky, opinionated, woman that loves to write about my experiences. Unfortunately I don’t get paid for it because I’m not good enough at it. But, I’ll continue to write until I can’t use my fingers anymore.
I’ve been through addiction, alcoholism, two very abusive relationships (one marriage lasting 15 years, with a narcissist), struggles in all relationships whether family, friend, or lover. I’ve never been successful in relationships because I choose men like my abusers.
I’ve been abused my entire life, from newborn, and still must deal with two children’s fathers that are both made from the same narcissistic mold and they use my children, and their own manipulation to play games to spite the fact that I left them. They’ve literally ripped my heart out using my children and I still have to deal with it to this day. I don’t know why I have to live a life like this. I deserve so much better, as do you. But how do you do it? How do YOU still struggle and suffer in life? How do you deal with it and what is the best advice you could give about your ability to survive?